Moving On, Moving Along

Happy New Year! It's been a looong while since I've posted anything online lately. That's because (1) I didn't have enough time to do so, and (2) I'm moving on to tumblr.com to handle any blog posts I may have in the future.

So yeah, if you still wanna follow me, you can add me at tumblr, Facebook, even ask me questions at formspring. I'll still be keeping this active though, so as to keep following your blogs.

Rock on! :D

All Hail The Lone Wolf

Society has always had this way of defining the people that are a part of it. It seems like a kind of wave that goes through everyone's way, and people jump onto it for some reason only they know. We try to look at the course of history, and we see that the people's interests in a certain generation somehow fall into one single category(if not two). They choose things which are popular, things which they can have a fun and easy time with, and things that allow them to blend into the society and be accepted by it. Yet, in the midst of all these, what most people do not recognize, is that they are flowing into a current that will lead them to destroy the very essence of being human - our uniqueness.

Let us first recognize that man, by nature, is a social being. It requires both interaction and involvement among other humans in order for it to develop to its higher capabilities. But as we look at the world today, one that comprises more than 6 billion people, one can look around and see for himself the stereotype that people indifferently choose to follow. It's as if they are impervious to the fact that each has its own mind, its own thought. Somehow poeple would just be lazy enough to sit back and follow the person right in front, not even knowing where that person is heading. It's as if most people are content with living all-similar lives, a life where one only does what someone else already has. Sure, once or twice some sudden thought invades our train of thought and allows us to deliver a more original concept. But then again, most of the time we are only improving what was already there, and simply putting into light what majority were just too blind to see. Honestly, when can you seriously say that an original idea was one that seriously lived up to its meaning, devoid of all doubt and having no strings attached?

Some of you might say that this post is nothing but a tribute, simply because most of the time, society dictates the only possibilities that we can choose. Society is there to be the medium and and to be guide that facilitates us into becoming a better person for the good of all society. Yet, is it not obvious enough that the ones who really deliver a change in the world are the ones that choose to opt out of the norms and follow their own paths? If people were to just follow one path, the path that the majority dictates, then life would become the dullest thing since broken records were invented. No room for growth would ever be possible, and we would be living in a non-progressive, stagnant world where today would not be any different from yesterday or even tomorrow. However, thanks to a select few, we have a world that moves forward with each day that passes. And it is to them that we should take off our hats to, regardless of who they are or where they come from. It is to them that I hold the highest regard for.

Just because we are all human, doesn't mean we're all the same. The one thing that makes us similar is the one thing that sets us all apart - uniqueness.


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some men just want to watch the world burn.

Difference

I am carried by the waters
Flowing past shore after shore
Always lost in mystery
Forever seeking more and more

It could be discontent
Or curiosity of all that is beyond me
Beyond reality, beyond time
Beyond this external that I see

There is music in the currents
Comfort in being in this vast unknown
My spirit lingers in the ocean depths
Silent, sincere, alone..

I am drifting..drifting..
In this never-ending search of mine
Just feeling, trusting
The waves to take me through the shades of time

But I cling to the shards of hope I have left
Remember every shore I've passed
And leave a mark wherever the current takes me
To make sure my memory will forever last..

~to the person who wrote me this poem, you know who you are. just know that you will be forever remembered by me.
thank you~

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hasta el día muero.

Tribute

There's a belief going on around the world that says that angels live among us. On one perspective, this could have completely religious ties and backgrounds. However, the mere concept of an "angel" is personally too multi-dimensional to be put into descriptive words. One cannot simply fathom a being that may be lesser than God, yet greater than any human being alive. However, can't an angel be a human being at the same time?

Nearing my eighteenth year in this world, realizations have come to me that in fact, angels do exist. No, I do not mean human-like figures wearing white robes with wings attached to their backs coming down from the heavens enveloped in a bright shining aura (that's just too dramatic for me). What I do mean, however, is the day-to-day people you get to meet, the acquaintances you greet "hello!" to, the total stranger who asks you directions on where the cafeteria may be, or even your current love interest. No matter who this person may be, you have to feel blessed that your path in life crossed with such a blessing which you can never forget. No, my friend, do not react and say that you have never seen such a person in your life. The simple fact is that you have failed to recognize such a person existing in your life. Not unless you lead a life wherein the word "friends" do not exist (and if you did, you wouldn't be reading this post), then I'm pretty much sure you have such in your life.

So let's say you are now thinking as to who these people may be. We know for sure that that person has pretty much influenced your life in ways more than once. But a question beckons you into asking transcendentally what the presence of this "angel" means for your life. More often than not, people are contented with shoving this thought aside, thinking that these "angels" are there for their personal gain, and though they are given credit, one can settle for unanswered questions in lieu of a question-free life. However, there are those that still question, looking beyond the things the majority see and try to look for an answer to a question only few minds have opened up to. And it is by doing such, that we truly recognize the importance these "angels" play in our lives. From being our everyday idols, to our reliable confidante, and even our special someone (yes, they do count), these blessings-in-person are there not just to lead us through life, but to walk beside us as well, helping us learn in the process. It doesn't even matter if they stray away ocassionally or even for extended periods of time, because we very well trust in them to be there for us when we need them the most, just sitting idly by the street side and watching us from afar, waiting to pick us up when we fall down and ultimately letting us realize that we have to learn to pick ourselves up eventually. Why, you ask? Simply because it is a known fact that things will always change, and we come to realize that what if these "angels" have changed or are not present anymore? Who do we have left? Nothing? No! For if you look at it, we always have those memories in us, whether we like it or not. And honestly, memories can mean a lot more than the present.

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Sweet nothings actually mean something.

Untitled

Don't ask me about the title. It's not like you haven't heard of it before, but I just made it up because for one, I don't know why I'm making this post, and two, I might as well make the most of the opportunity while it's there.

But seriously friend, my life lately has been full of ups and downs. Feeling worse than a roller coaster ride, I can't even begin to explain how the heck am I still breathing. For starters, I took a huge risk that blew up entirely in my face, yet I'm still thankful as to how it turned out. Follow this up with a deeply-disturbed school and it's inefficient way of running things, add a couple of exams that spell I-AM-IGNORANT, mix it up with fucking fraternities trying to convince you to join them, then put them all in a container labeled "No More than Two Weeks Old", and you get the most hectic two weeks of your life. psh. No wonder I'm making shitty posts such as this.

But really, is it all just an illusion? Don't get me started on philosophical questions, for I have had enough of them to last me four more college years. What I'm simply trying to point out is that life has finally bit me back when for so long I had it under my control. But just so you know, this time I'm letting it. We'll see how it turns out, and where it will eventually have me land. I got no worries though. I got pride in saying that I know who I am, and what my body and thought are capable of. Whoever shall be successful will be, and the loser takes a back seat. And if you know me, you know I don't allow anything to get in the way of what I try to achieve. Understand? Good.


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When the truth pursues you, it consumes you.

P.S. "Understand?" was a question that aimed for you to say no. If you did get to say yes though, either I got you fooled, or you're just simply stupid. Ciao.

Premature Farewell

It seems to me that both time and emotion has made it impossible for me to carry out the task I was so intent on finishing. Now, I do not and will not utilize this chance to go all-emotional on you friend. No, that is not my style, and you know it. Let' s just say that the only permanent thing in this world is constant change, and it may seem that a certain change has struck me to my core and caused a paradigm shift on my railway of thought. I will not assume that I can successfully make you understand what I am trying to imply. You see friend, it is but natural in all of us to be philosophizing certain aspects in life, as you may noticed if you scroll down this page and get to read my earlier posts. Screw me then.


Before, when life was full of mystery and wonder, I could not help but imagine why people become so naive when it comes to goals and responsibilities. Take for example the idea of a promising future; whatever we (or our parents for that matter) do so that such a promise "could" be made. Stupid gits. For one, you're practically saying that the future is some room that you pre-furnish just so that the next occupants(meaning you're spoiled-ass children) can get the chance to destroy everything you've oh-so-worked hard for. And two, you're not psychic, dumbass. Having just shown what anger I have in me, let me just make myself more clear: so with everything else in this world, I have changed. Simple as that. If you can't understand a simple three-word statement, then stop reading this blog and get a life. Seriously. Now don't go and start blaming me on being this rude, malicious bastard. If you do so then maybe you haven't actually heard the word honesty before, or you don't speak English. I do not care. Now on to the serious part. Life has it's way of biting you back where it can hurt the most. I started this blog in the context of being able to let people open their eyes up and start to actually "think". But as I see it, very few people do so. It's either they deliberately choose not to, don't have enough time to, or are just incapable of doing so. Psh. I'm honestly fed up with how the world runs today. Screw you if you sympathize with me, you guys have already done the damage.

Once and for all, let me make myself clearer than what I have tried to always been. I have changed. My points have changed. My sides are not anymore what they were. Yet, amongst all these, I shall forever remain loyal to my principles, and to the way of life I have committed myself to follow. I cannot give the assurance that you shall hear from me soon, or even hear from me ever again, but rest assured friend, I am always one e-mail away from hearing you out. Ciao.

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Ashes to ashes, dust to dust.

a view on love...

Know that this is not part of the scheme I am trying to employ in this blog. More of a personal nature, I shall let the title speak for itself.

This concerns a certain topic that has taught me a lot more about life. Of course, I am talking about love. I sometimes wonder if there should be a norm for what feelings we should have. Come on friend, don't you sometimes question yourself if what you're feeling is the right one or not? Most of us rarely get an answer though, because we've got more important things to worry about, like passing Physics :-) . But on the other hand, the fact that we're giving it thought and it on the other hand giving us worries, its already clear enough that this has to have some meaning. And that meaning may either make us experience heaven, flying as high as we can imagine, or it could dampen the very essence of living life. You see, some of us allow ourselves to be affected by something that shouldn't be. And I admit, I was one of them, and I'm making this post in the hope of maybe, just maybe, you may be guided and not find yourself in the same rut I was.


In life, we usually do our routine. Wake up, go to school, come home, sleep, and repeat the whole process again, not including the eating and joking around in between them. But that will greatly change, not because you won the lottery or anything, but because you've found yourself falling for another person of the opposite sex. This gets an even major emphasis in the event that it is still youzr first time. You find yourself somehow floating in clouds every time you see each other, and most especially when you go together. You see friend, it is but natural. Do not feel anything against yourself, for it is part of nature's way of saying that you are growing up. And in this regard, the decisions and principles you follow at this stage are very critical in dealing with how you will be seeing this as you mature. Here are some tips that might help:

• Never overreact to your feelings.
• Be mature enough not only to handle your feelings well, but to also not disregard what responsibilities you have, especially your own life.
• Remember that your supposed loved one is part of your life, NOT YOUR WHOLE LIFE. Simply give time for yourself too. If you're too in love already, lay back and try to think of yourself for even just a bit.
  
• Know that oftentimes, people who get into relationships this early in their lives do it for the reason that they can use their 'partner' for something else, e.g., helping in Science, or being with someone who is materially blessed.
• In the case of a break-up, wherein the supposed love-of-your-life leaves you for dead and runs around with some other person, try to stop and think. If you did nothing wrong in the relationship, then you deserve someone better. There are around 6 billion other people in the world. Saying that you can't find any other is quite ridiculous, for you surely will.
• Control the relationship, don't let it control you. Some relationships actually destroy the life and principles of someone who has tried his/her very best to achieve such. Trust me, there are.
• Lastly, never say that someone you were with means nothing to you know, because for sure, for in one way or another, he/she has taught you to become the better person you are today.

Being unfortunate in these kinds of matters, I feel it is my duty to be a beacon to anyone who is drawn by it. Posting up what my life has been, it would be too long. But if you really want to, or just want any advice, add me up at ace_of_spades0804@yahoo.com. I'll do my best to help, as I will always.
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I got this icebox where my heart used to be.